Postcard 23

My week in omens:

• Handle broke off car door in my hand
• The following podcasts played consecutively -
• phenomenology of Hegel
• Being and Identity in 'Fight Club" and "the Game"
• Radiolab "In the Dust of This Planety
• Star Trek episode "Spectre of the Gun" discussion
• Descartes meditations: What can we know?
• Marc Maron interviews Ru Paul, discusses identity and being

      } All of these have to do with 

unknowableness and the meaningless 

of existence (or our perception of it) 

and what to do about it

• At drawing night, I was practicing hand drawing and inadvertently drew the Sistine Chapel's hand of God
• My horoscope this week first apologized to me then predicted: "Deep sexy darkness and sexy brilliance are conspiring to bring you intriguing pleasures that will educate the naive part of your soul"

In an unknowing way, I can perceive the intent of these omens, these markers. They are first , a verification of all that I believe through experience and induction. They are second, a challenge that I have been preparing for. They are third, a  promise that the thing or experience I think I will lose is actually a poor copy of what I could gain. When meaning is stripped and abandoned, then meaning becomes solely my responsibility and I'll only know it through living.